Loss can turn us into unbelievers in a matter of minutes. I’m saying this from my experience years ago. I miscarried three times and with every miscarriage I had; I wanted to know the cause. I thought if I had the right information I would be in a better position to prepare myself for next time. Unfortunately, in my case after every aftermath test; the doctors still did not know the cause for sure. According to this article on Baby Centre website one in 100 women experience recurring miscarriages and only half of these cases can be explained. The more I couldn’t find the answers the more I lost my faith.
It says in Jeremiah 29:11 ”For I know the plans I have for you’ declared the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future,” The pain of miscarrying was unbearable but I held on to this scripture and believed that my God will not let me down. It was a painful long struggle withing me. I questioned God’s intentions and doubted His love. But when the storm settled I had to go back to my only source of strength – My Creator.
How I Accepted God’s ‘Not Now’ Answer
- Trust in God because He cares. It was difficult to think of God as caring while I was going through the loss, but deep down I knew He cared about my feelings, grief and disappointments and everything else.
- Be patient because God always delivers. I learnt to be patient and wait for God’s deliverance. I also learnt that no amount of tears or prayer can change my destiny. God knew that accepting to be tested will teach me something about myself and make me a better person.
- Suffering strengthen faith. The hurt, disappointment and loss of hope was supposed to happen. It strengthened my faith and taught me to pray with a deeper hope that I never knew I had.
- Everything including our suffering, loss and disappointments work out for God’s glory.
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